alice in wonderland

Well, our hyd chief quit yesterday. There was a town-hall to announce this and it was difficult for him. He had joined as a fresher and had stayed back for 17 years.

I don't attach any significance to this. We have seen bigger people quitting in the last one year. And i don't work under him anyways.

But then i do remember the first time he talked to me. It was our orientation session just after joining. His topic was careers in the organization. And he quoted this :

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
The Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to
Alice: I don't much care where.
The Cat: Then it doesn't much matter which way you go.
Alice: …so long as I get somewhere.
The Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if only you walk long enough.

if you are still wondering, thats from "alice in wonderland".
And i think that was a very opt quote.
In-fact the whole book,claimed to be a children's book is full of thought provoking quotes for adults. And IMHO, it is the most ideal book, if you want to story tell a kid, like read five pages out, close it out, and then continue tomorrow - you know, i have been read hardy boys like that.

28th August 2003

They say you shouldn't trace rishi moolam nadhi moolam. Well, here's mine.

I was not yet 21 then. It was a holiday, i dont know on account of what.

Me,cock and Mugundhan went to IMS pillayar koil. Thats one of the most beautiful temples you would see. A single simple room with a statue and some place around it to do the rounds. All this set in the sidelines of a medical college. We used to go there as more of a peaceful get-away than to pray or anything.

So we went there and were coming back. We were about to enter our hostel. And then i wanted to buy a toothbrush. That proved, err, lets say, impacting.

I walked till NMB to get the brush. these guys were standing there. jagan and co. The famous super-deuce on their way to thendral. I was tempted. I joined. We went to thendral. I think i had some gin from ajay, some whiskey from someone, half a glass of beer,a sip of wine. we poured gin into jaffer's sprite. He found out.

i dont remember what else i had. I only remember saying the now legendary 'nalla irukkuda" a couple of times.

I think we were left with around 150 rupees. The quota was ten rupees for dinner and the rest for journey back to hostel. I am not sure here, but i think some cab-wala picked us up for whatever money we had.

Life has been different ever since. A lot of convictions shattered and new ones created.

But then we were a bunch of people who dint drink to crib about lost loves or work woes. we dint even rant about our marks or placements. Those were real care-free days.

happy birthday jagan.

weird

something really wierd happened.


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It was raining at spot 1. 2 and 3 are ten feet from 1. We were at 2,3. there was a sound,but we dint realise what it was. Its raining heavily at 1. We started running. Then it started raining at 1 and 3. 2 is dry as a desert. And then finally after two minutes it started raining at 2. It stopped in five mins. We came back. There was a small spot inside 2 that was still dry. Anybody ever saw something of this kind ?

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A walk back from office to home

It was around 10. I crossed a ice-cream vendor. i wanted to eat ice-cream. I walked on. Couples sitting in front of the closed air-tel counter. A vague thought that i am single. I crossed pizza hut. i wanted pizza. Image hospitals. The other guy was buying a cigarette. I wanted cigarette. hyderabad house. A car started. I wanted a car. I walked into my home. arun was watching a movie. I wanted to watch a movie.

how in heavens ?

U.S. beats 1-0 Brazil for soccer gold ????

I am not that serious a football fan, but still brazil is some name in football !

Then i followed the link

andha ponnu unnayae paakkaraada

not updating. post avlo dhan.

disturbed

by this

Cant really say that I don't have an opinion on this. so here goes.

do i stare ? yes, i do. I believe, more than half the men do. pass comments ? again, mostly yes. Some try to hide it. from the target. due to decency or a pretense at it.But the inner thoughts seem to be the same.

well, What should a girl do when something like this happens. just bear it, act totally ignorant and carry on?

It happens everyday. I know it happens in my office. behind a shield of personal small talk or an innocuous joke, but the suggestions are sometimes very obvious.
many just shrug it off.
Wise. failing to acknowledge seems to be the best way.
otherwise :
suppose the offender was a serious criminal with serious intentions, that's a different problem. But what if he was just a fool acting under some impulse. well, i would prefer if these latter aren't rubbed the wrong way, turning harmless/foolish men into serious criminals.

The best way seems to not attract attention at all in first place. This might mean having to wear boring clothes.not trying to even talk loud. not walking alone. All this might seem like going back ages. but then, accept that we are not yet out of those ages.

it might be one case out of a 1000. of girls being targeted. but when that one happens to be you, or your near ones, it hurts.

Tag time

Tagged by insecure-her :D :D :D
OK. I am planning to do it rapid fire fashion, in the next twenty minutes flat. Lets try

I am : a dreamer.
I think : silence is a language few deserve.
I know : i talk too much and over commit.
I want : a lot of things. lets say a billion dollars. rest will follow.
I have : some basic emailing experience. Will i be able to switch jobs this year ?
I wish : mmm, err..., well, you all know the story. The philosopher asked the man to find the tallest plant from the field.
I HATE : people commenting on me. i am a kind of touch-me-not.
I miss : a girl friend
I fear : my tomorrow will never come
I feel : all-right.
I hear : some team-mates discussing project issues. over and above my earphone playing songs.
I smell : .of wet shoes and cigarettes. DONT come near me.
I crave : for many things. arun might say attention. not far off.
I search : easy one. tranquility.
I wonder : if its difficult for anybody else to do the basics of eating,working and sleeping.
I regret :
I ache : physically ? i can bear lots of pain.
I cry : last time was when i wasnt given a bowling chance.
I’m not : yet what i would like I to be
I believe : when people say good things about me :P
I dance : NOT
I sing : most of the times. companions ask "did you speak something ?"
I don’t always : talk foolish.
I fight : NOT. will have to start pretty soon. like what jagan quotes from fight club. I dont believe in fighting with anyone else but self.
I write : to impress. to show-off. to vent out.
I win : early trust.
I lose : composure. pretty easily.
I never : say no to playing.
I always : oh, always is a big word.
I confuse : many times.
I listen : even when somebody talks foolish. but only when i am not sober.
I can usually be found : with unkempt hair.
I’m scared : of future. what it holds.
I need : discipline.
I imagine : myself as a successful film director.
I am happy about : “Happiness? But that is so middle-class." - Toohey in fountain head.

Tag is open to all.

marriage

Marriage,ultimately, is the practice of becoming passionate friends.
- Ralph waldo emerson

from a marriage invitation i recently got.

A cynic gotta have a blog.

somebody types out a nice mail, so nice that it almost like a over sweet semia-paayaasam. so you start doing a reply all and type in "nice ;) very nice". But you are not sure the point will be got. Else, the person will seriously hate you. so you close the mail. thank god, you can put these things in your blog and just presume that the person will never time-ily read this bit.